To desire solely the Cross does not mean that I desire suffering; in fact, it has nothing to do with me and everything to do with Christ. I desire only to remain in His continuous agony in the Eucharist.

Jesus begins to draw us into His Sacred Heart, alive and hidden in the Host. He begins to reveal to the soul that has persevered suffering all with Him and patiently endured the various levels of purification, the mystery of His Eucharistic life. The soul comes to experience His sorrows as He waits for each son and daughter to enter the consuming fire of His divine love and become transformed, consumed, in God, in Love. His sorrows are the deepest longing of the Heart of Abba for each of us; an agony of love and sorrow so deep and so consuming that it can only be expressed in the groans of His Sacred Heart. The soul comes to know and experience the tears of Jesus, who cries unceasingly with every soul and for every soul. Jesus’ Eucharistic life begins to consume us, and our love for our Love crucified, desires solely to remain with Him, collecting His tears in the chalice of our hearts as one with Mary, our Mother. We want to remain with Him, accompanying Him, in His sorrows and suffering for the conversion of sinners and the salvation of souls. It is no longer my emotions of sorrow that I am suffering, but Jesus’s sorrows. My feelings, you could say, have taken the back seat, and my delight and joy are to remain with Jesus, in His sorrows, suffering with Him for souls.

For many years, I was living my sorrows with Jesus, but my sorrows were in the forefront. Therefore, my sorrows were mixed with resentment, anger, frustration, and disappointment. But the grace of God brought forth this new shift in my heart, and without expecting this miracle, I have been drawn into the Eucharist, into Christ’s Eucharistic life, and I have begun to live in His sentiments.

Jesus’s sorrows are pure love, which means they are expressed with tears of longing for His Bride, each of us. His sorrows are expressed through His tenderness in mercy. Just as He gazed at Peter when Peter denied him, and how He gazed at Judas with his betrayal, with tenderness in mercy, that is how He gazes at each of us from the Tabernacle. To desire solely the Cross, then means that I live my life in the hiddenness of my heart, consumed in Jesus Eucharist, participating as one with Him, united to Mary, in His sorrows and tears solely for love of Him and the desire for the redemption of souls.