I find myself now in my life striving to live as a Mother of the Cross. Through the immense mercy of my Lord, He has begun purifying my heart in the furnace of His Heart, and I find myself loving more purely and also suffering with greater intensity. I see and experience the darkness and the hardened hearts of those that are closest to me, and my heart cries. I go out into the world, and I see and experience the spiritual blindness of my brothers and sisters (for now, I also see all people as my brothers and sisters in Christ), and my heart is pierced with sorrow. I see so many women of all ages dressed provocatively because this is fashionable, and my heart cries for them.

So many souls do not know the love of the Trinity, and my heart seems to want to offer myself as a living sacrifice even more. My Lord and my God, how can it be that so many souls do not know Your love? How can it be that Love is not loved by so many, especially Your beloved sons, Your priests?

The Holy Spirit seems to be drawing me into the hidden life of Jesus and Mary because here lies the secret of how I can live my life, helping to save the souls of my family and many more. I understand with such clarity that it will be through my hidden life that I will be able to live most united to the Word of the Cross and, thus, possess the power of God to save souls as ONE martyr of love in Jesus and Mary.