In the letter I wrote LC on Holy Thursday 2017, I wrote:

Jesus’ choice of ALLOWING Himself to be shamed, spat on, punched, pierced, insulted, discouraged, and crucified comes from the freedom of knowing where He came from, who He is, and His purpose on earth. His identity was solid, unshakeable, and rooted in perfect trust in ABBA.

I am called to be a SUFFERING SERVANT.

These words have filled my heart with much peace and clarity on how I am called to live this difficult relationship. I must choose to love unconditionally as Christ loves me. This means I cannot say, “Because they have not received the truth I bring them, I cannot give them the tenderness of my affection.” This is human love that places conditions on love. Christ allowed Himself to be used and abused and chose to remain in love by continuing to receive our sins and disorders and eventually die on the Cross for love of us. Jesus’s self-esteem was intact, and He allowed Himself to be used and chose to continue to give Himself fully.

I now also choose to follow my Master, my Spouse. I, too, will receive the piercings of being used in the silence of my heart and choose to pour myself out as a TOTAL GIFT OF SELF in tenderness and love. This choice, at the end of my life, is rooted in a solid foundation of living in the embrace of the love of ABBA, my Father, Jesus, my Beloved, and the Holy Spirit, my dearest and closest Divine Companion. I now choose to live in the freedom of knowing who I am, a precious daughter of Abba, and spouse of the Most Precious Blood of Jesus, and in my purpose, to be one with the pure sacrifice of Christ solely to glorify Him and help in the redemption of souls.

I become God’s victim soul, one with God Victim, only to the extent that my dignity is restored in God, only when I have come to know and experience Abba’s love for me, through Christ, as His beloved daughter. I no longer am the wrong kind of victim, a doormat because my dignity is still wounded, now, in the arms of my Father, as one with Christ crucified, and consumed in the fire of love of the Holy Spirit I become God’s victim of love and live receiving the brokenness of others into my heart and choosing to love in return.

I choose to live in Jesus’ SILENT SUBMISSION (Is 53:7) to the will of our Father!