I continue living a profound interior solitude. I have entered the tabernacle of my heart, and the door has been closed and locked. I’m living in the darkness of this enclosure. Through faith, I know that I am enclosed with Jesus; He is truly with me; I am not alone.

Today the Holy Spirit gave me the light to understand and see Jesus asleep next to me, as He was in the boat with the disciples during the storm. I want my Lord to sleep and rest while I keep watch and pray. Today I feel the gift of being united through this suffering of solitude to:

All my brothers and sisters in Iraq in the solitude of the desert, suffering great darkness, alone and forgotten.

All my brothers and sisters, Asia Bibi, imprisoned and alone in jail for their faith in Jesus Christ.

All my sisters worldwide suffering the solitude of having been abandoned by their husbands through the sin of adultery.

All my spiritual sons…who have come to experience life in the Spirit must live the solitude of not being able to live this new life with freedom in their communities.

Married couples who have not come to experience true intimacy in Christ, and therefore, live isolated from each other.

All the MOC and MC, in their hidden lives of sorrow.

In this darkness and solitude, I am intimately united to Jesus’ solitude in the tabernacles of the world. I can thank Him, adore Him, and love Him for remaining with us, suffering the solitude of the distance between Him and us, the agony of His thirst for love, the agony of having to live the suffering of solitude because the majority have not opened their hearts to His love.

During this past week that I was on vacation with my family, I went every morning to Mass at St Elizabeth Ann Seton Church on the Palm Coast. Their chapel was behind the main altar of the church. A large gold tabernacle was in the middle of the round chapel. I prayed my Holy Hour in this chapel every day, gazing at the tabernacle. The Blessed Sacrament was never exposed. The tabernacle remained each morning closed and locked with the key. Today I understood how the Lord has been teaching me all week. I, too, am living enclosed in the tabernacle of my heart with Jesus. I must remain enclosed in this darkness without the door being opened for as long as Jesus desires. This is why I feel separated from all. I do not seem to have any words to speak, teach, or write…

With God’s grace, I am trying to live this solitude with Jesus in peace and abandonment for my two families, the mission of LC, and all my sons and daughters…

My Lord, my God, my Spouse; I love you, save souls! Please grant me the grace to live this suffering of solitude and darkness with perfect faith, gratitude, and love, for, without You, I can do nothing. May this holy darkness within me radiate Your Light… Amen