Living the interior martyrdom with Jesus has become my life. I participate intimately and painfully in my Lord’s agony of love for the healing and transformation of others. This interior life is very active, affecting my physical state of being, emotions, intellect, perceptions, thoughts, words, and deeds. Living in the hidden force of God’s love in the Eucharist has become my life and joy.

God, in His infinite goodness, allowed me to live and see the fruit of this hidden martyrdom, the unbinding of a close friend. Words cannot express the wonderment, awe, and the consuming gratitude I am experiencing.

Today, the Holy Spirit brought me to ponder Baruch 4:20–22. In these words, I encounter who I am in Jesus crucified during these times of great darkness.

I have taken off the robe of peace and put on the sackcloth of my supplication: I will cry to the Everlasting all my days. Take courage, my children, cry to God, and he will deliver you from the power and hand of the enemy. For I have put my hope in the Everlasting to save you, and joy has come to me from the Holy One, because of the mercy which soon will come to you.

I have become this spiritual mother, one with the Mother of God, through the infinite mercy of Jesus Christ, supplicating for all my children, which, I feel, has expanded to all of God’s children, with tears and perfect hope in Christ’s Cross and Resurrection. I am the mother supplicating before the throne of the Father through the interior martyrdom of love as ONE with my Love crucified.

What gratitude for such a beautiful and powerful life!